Experienced a storm on top of a blessing...

So as I always mention life for me is up and down with the things that I go through daily. I still chose to find some type of wonderful even when I maybe down. We are all humans and we can hurt, stress and worry even when we try to be so hard and strong. For the most part I have been learning to really be patient and wait on the Lord to guide me in every aspect of my life.

We can't continue to stress over the things that we can't change. We don't have the power to make any type of Godly changes because we are only human. Even when we plan things it still comes out twisted and turned around in ways you never thought it could go. That is where you simple sit back and say..ok that's life!

I have set up plans to make monthly payments for my medical bills. Called and let them know I would be making a payment on a certain day and then was not able to. No I don't have bad credit but yes I fear one of my bills will hit my credit and mess up my plan to get a home loan so I can purchase my first house in a few months.

Things came up and plans changed to where I could not even attempt to make a payment on any of those planned medical bills. Yes I stay proactive and called each one to let them know that I just simply don't have it. I'm putting forth the effort to make contact with them to let them know I'm a honest person and am trying very hard to pay my debt. I JUST DON'T HAVE IT!

In life we make so many plans and we just can't do EVERYTHING. My lights where on the verge of getting cut off. My mother blessed me to pay some of that bill. All in Jesus name. I am able to see and have lights and heat in this cold winter. God worked that out and my mom just happened to be going to pay her light bill that day.

My Father bought me groceries so I could have nourishment for my body all in Jesus name. God made this possible. I just so happened to pick up a ad to Kroger yesterday only wishing I had enough money to catch the latest sells. Then my dad called and let me know he was coming down to take me to the store. My heart filled with joy because I knew that God did that.

God has really came into my life without any kind of plan on my part. He just did it. This was beyond my wildest desires. God knows what I need more than what I may want. I had a gift card that I was able to use for household supplies.

I have a ride to work everyday. I am just so blessed. Even though I constantly battle different types of depression, stress, and just the experience of LIFE. I know that deep inside there is always a better plan in the spirit of my FATHER in HEAVEN. With that I give God so much praise. He has done so much for me and I know this is not the end. I am so humbled by his works and I know God works through people.

Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you.
Just know that sometimes in life things don't always go as planned but know that God will give you the desires of your heart. He has the ultimate plan and when one thing falls down God will pour you out a blessing by his design. You have to place it upon Gods will. I hope this has touched someone. I am a real human being and I struggle just like everyone else does in the world but I hold on to my faith because I know God is not finished with me yet.

He is the GREAT I AM! I hope everyone has a blessed night in Jesus name may you lay your troubles with God and know that he will take care of it. Let him be the MASTER in your PLAN.

Zaundra-

Happy New Year

Wow! We have approached a new year what a blessing for so many reasons. I had intentions on posting some thoughts yesterday but I was very sick and today I still feel weak and I'm in bed as I will be most of the day. Perhaps I have some type of virus that has been going around. I still wanted to post my thoughts today. I have the biggest plan EVER!

Keeping God in my life daily without any hesitation on to busy etc. We have to keep God in our heart and soul every day. These fast and quick prayers just to say we have prayed for the night is just not working on meaningful in my book. I owe my life to God and I or nor should anyone else that believes in God be to tired or sleepy, to not pray in depth to God on our good and bad days. He deserves to be praised every day. I have joined a couple different sites where I have started a bible reading plan. Mostly the one year Bible. I also have a women's bible that is a one year bible. I am so excited to read daily and take time in my day to meditate the word and give thanks to God and just keep him and get him in my heart more than ever. We are responsible for stabilizing a relationship with God for all the RIGHT reasons.

I have decided that I want to meet more Christians because going back to my friend post I believe that you can find a better friend in one who has the same beliefs. In most and some ways. I true friend will love you no matter what you believe as well. I just want to be happy with life and with friendships. So I started the new year off with joining a couple different sites. This first one is a online Reading Bible plan. You can pick a reading plan to follow to ready the Bible daily. It's fun and exciting. It comes in many translations to fit the needs of any one.

http://www.youversion.com/

Also http://www.crosswalk.com/ is a nice Christian website that I have joined as well. You can set up a free account and start a free Bible plan as well.

Also I joined a network that allows you to meet and talk with other Christians. I have seen a lot of younger people on the site but some older as well. It's a site for everyone.

http://www.faithfreaks.com/ It's set up kind of like My space in away but you set up a free profile and it's neat. I'm excited to connect with other Christians.

OK I have another personal website that I have been a member of for the last  6 months or so called

http://www.mydailystrength.org/ this site has helped me so much dealing with so many life issues. Health, relationships and so much more it's an online support group that reaches out o everyone dealing with every medical, emotional and life condition. It helps me daily get my feelings together and connects with other people that may be going through the same thing as me. I love this site.

Anymore I get tired of Face book, seeing peoples rude status messages, and talking about drinking etc. So I am trying to do some new things in my life for the new year.

Hope everyone has some good plans for the new year.

Letting Go and Letting God-Seasons change

Who said that life would be so easy? I can remember when I was younger I was so carefree. Not a worry in the world so it seemed. I sit back and reflect on this past year. Last year around this time I was finding God more than ever. I was more humble than ever and had such a deep desire to serve the Lord.  My mother and I went on our journey to find a church where we could go to and feel free to serve the Lord. We found a church where we found acceptance and love. It was a life changing event for me as I started really feeling the Lord for who he is. March 3rd I bot baptised and felt so close to the Lord and things were changing in my life for the better with God.

All I could think about was going to church on Sundays and listening to the word, reading the word and surrounding myself with people that loved the Lord as I. I can remember being younger not wanting to attend church, being shy to be around so many people and it was different for me. That first Sunday in January I joined church and accepted the Lord into my life. That was a fresh start in my life and I was so overjoyed and excited to be apart of such a big and great church.

My pastor taught me so much and I felt so close to him so fast. Over the next few months I attended church with my mother every chance I got even if I had to walk to church I would be there and try to be as active in the church as I could. I learned more about Tithing and did my share to serve the Lord the way I knew how.

I studied and read the word a lot. I became a different person for all the right reasons for once. Although still battling other issues in my life I was learning to lean on God more instead of my own understandings of what I called life. One day my mother and I attended church and our pastor was not going to be at our church any more. For reasons I don't want to get into. Very personal. I was heart broken, my mother and I along with people all around cried and screamed in sadness and I was shaking and scared. I had finally moved past my fears of being around a lot of people and joined this great accepting church and the one that I learned so much from was leaving. It was very hard for me and I felt so lost and empty.

How would I get through this, why did this happen like this? To make a long complicated story short. My mother and I was lost and to this day have not found another church home. My soul still longs for the Lord but I fell off a lot from where I was before and it is really sad. I am trying to find God again and it's scary to know that sometimes we depend on MAN more than God when no other MAN should be before GOD in the first place.

I had to remind myself that MAN does not control my destiny but GOD does and although I have reached a hard time in my life I can not stop serving God because of things that has happened. God places us in places for different seasons to give us experience and lessons to make us stronger. God is able and I have been learning that I have to let go and allow God in my life the way it was designed for him to be. I will have a church home soon and I know God has a plan for me.

Things have not been easy for me but I know GOD is a GOD of second chances and this year it is my order to be faithful to my GOD and serve him forever no matter what hard times I reach. I have to keep his word in my heart. I will no longer let others dectate my strength or passion because GOD will never leave or forsake me. With that being said. God allows things to happen for a reason it shows you a lot for all the right reasons even when you may think it's wrong. God places your life in different seasons but hard ones don't last always.

God has a design and purpose for me and I know he will supply my every need. Churches change, pastors chance along with seasons. I can not let that affect my relationship with GOD the one who forgives me and shows me love and compassion. I thought that this Church was where I would be for a lifetime and things changed so it is up to GOD to lead me to my new destiny. I will not talk about what I am going to do I will place action on it.

I hope this helped someone out here in the world. God is a good God and is able more than man. We must learn to depend on GOD and let man come last!